PTSD - Before every appointment i'm scared. i’m not excited to see it again. is this what "normal" pregnant people feel? Total blissful happiness and excitement? Don't they know that they could look and the heartbeat could have stopped? It could have “arrested development.” That there is no baby anymore? And you will have to endure the abortion procedure to get what’s left of it out? That's where I have been. A few times. So now, I'm scared. We have an appointment tomorrow morning and im still nervous. What if something is wrong because something has always been wrong. I wonder how it feels to just be blissfully pregnant.